Oof, Crisis

aghh, I've got soo much to get off my mind.

I came home REALLY happy.

I'd gotten 100 for Math and the collage looks good!

on the way home, just let my mind wander.

thought about how glad the collage is finished!

and the Al Gore board is almost complete!

just a little time tomorrow, it'll be done.

and then there're the class boards I have to fill in.

and then MYE's coming up in about 6 weeks.

reached home, planning what's left to do with the rest of the day, I see my mom by the table.

she's good.

all is(was) good.

I went to her room to clean up and to take out my contact lenses.

and she says "I hope you don't break anymore of your contact lenses"

and I told her one side broke yesterday. I was rubbing my eye and it came out, and it broke.

she scolded me.

a lot? saying I don't care how much they spend on contact lenses.

and I just do whatever I like (?)

so, the usual, I keep quiet and keep the argument, in the sense of both time and anger, to a minimal.

she just goes on and on.

and as she asks me why I'm so rough with my contact lenses (obviously a rhetorical question), I BROKE ONE SIDE! my heart stopped. I put them in the casing and I left the room.

I am still pretty scared.

maybe it's best I don't tell her?

but I'm 101% sure it isn't me.

it's definitely the brand of the contact lenses! -.-

or maybe the amount of time I've been keeping them for?

so, obviously, I noticed and so did the rest of the family, she's in a bad mood -.-

and when she's in a bad mood, she has NO idea how ridiculous she gets.

and how self-centered she sounds as if she's the only person in the world to have problems.

but, I guess everyone wants a little self pity.

leave it be, I went to SS2.

came back, Niahn decided to hide in her room.

mom heard the creaking of the door and asks who it is.

Niahn decides not to respond.

even after being asked multiple times. no response.

she gets so pissed, she starts shouting at her,

telling her that she asked so many times and why she didn't respond -.-

so, I think it's obviously she's not so happy. spending the whole evening trying to pick fights with everyone, and then telling everyone she's going through a lot.

my guess, she's either quarrelling with my dad

or, she's upset my dad couldn't come back from Seremban last night.

but here's the thing she's not seeing, making everyone else miserable just because she feels like picking on something, isn't solving anything!

2ndly, and this is most important, I have no idea why the hell she doesn't think about it, but, if she's lonely, or whatever the adjective is, she shouldn't be picking fights with everyone.

but making herself feel warm and cosy with everyone by her side.

she said, and I'd definitely NEVER quote (unless of course, I'm crazy mad), "this family is driving me crazy"