Wednesday, December 30, 2009

If I Could Just Stab You

a whole bunch of everyone came over yesterday (:
had a movie marathon.
which wasn't as hectic as I thought it would be!
which was good.
and then I went for dinner with the immediate family, Jade, Eening, Huiyi and Kim.
for steamboat! (:

then woke up this morning bought school shoesss and packed lunch from McD's and went to Huiyi's.
and she had to do some baking so I just helped her out a little.
sooo tired noww for some reason.

Monday, December 28, 2009


hellooooo :D
I'm now, 16!
just watching everybody turn 16.
and suddenly, I'm 16,
it doesn't feel all too good anymore -.-

but, I went for dinner at Las Carretas just now.
'cause dad won't be around tonight.
the food was AMAZING. as usualll!
yummmmm (:
and I got to wear a Sombrero? and they gave me a free brownie.
which was also extremely yummmmmm!

blaghh, I wanna buy The Killers dvd. when they performed in Royal Albert Hall!
but they don't sell it here
which is, stuuuupid. ):

anyway, it was a good dinner.
had loadsa fun with the family.
and, it's been a great year (:
SPM next year.
and no plans for new years.
maid's coming home!
so, we were jsut thinking of celebrating at home!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Our Distant Closness

gonna go out to celebrate my birthday dinner soon.
it's supposedly tomorrow, but my dad might be a little busy :/
going to Las Carretas (:

finally 16 in a matter of hours (:

Eening can't hold the movie marathon on Tuesday,
so, it's being held in my house.
wooohooo (:
hope it all turns out fine!
I've been kinda bored.
but, too awfully lazy to go anywhere

There's a Ringing

gahh! I wish my youtube would be faster -.-
I get so lazy to buffer videos when it's slow.
and there're soo many I wanna watch.

anyway, going to go to Eening's house for a movie marathon on Tuesday! (:
hope it works out fine!

I've been playing Sims like crazy.
brother as well.
I need a life. I should do something else.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmass! (;

it's the 25th of the month.
an occasion I don't particularly celebrate.
but, still a joyful time of year (:
and as usual, no plans.
no plans for Christmas, no plans for New Years

I'm kinda tired.
slept at like, 5 last night.
woke up at 11.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Glass Half Empty

hello, World!
went for Jiann Lee's birthday celebration in Shangri-La, KL yesterday.
then, after that, stayed another night at Huiyi's place.

school's starting sooooo soon!
before the holidays, I had ALL kinds of plans.
and, I don't even have enough time to finish!
I need to finish watching East of Eden.
but, I've been playing Sims like crazy -.-
and I still wanna watch so many shows!
urgh, it's not going all too well.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009


I'm getting so pissed off.
my Sims 3 won't download -.-
and I've been trying and trying and trying.

anyway, I went to OU today.
spent the day with Lam.
I watched Ninja Assassin.
not bad. but also, pretty bad.
the story line is a bit off.
but, the acting is quite good.
and Rain. ohmygod!
I've always thought he wasn't exactly good looking :/
but, he looked pretty good in the show.
and his BODY!

I'm staying the night at Huiyi's
and Kat'll be coming over tomorrow to go to Shagri La for Jiann Lee's birthday dinner!

I remember liking how my birthday turned out last year (:
I hope it's just as nice this year.
even though I'm not celebrating. :/

I wanna watch Titanic.
or something Leonardo DiCaprio.
I also wanna watch Pearl Harbour? but dad says it's not so good.

Sam's Town

wow. I'm tired.
it's already 1am.
but it feels like it should be 3am or something.
I wish it were 3!
I think my brother's reaching home by 3am?

well, gotta wake up tomorrow.
got some stuff to do.
but the maid's coming to clean up tomorrow,
so, I don't have to (:

I have a sudden want to watch Titanic. really.
or, Romeo and Juliet? Leonardo DiCaprio.
or Aviator? starring Leonardo DiCaprio.
or Blood Diamond? which has Leonardo DiCaprio.
I loooove him (:
can't decide. I haven't watched any of it accept Titanic.
and I don't even have Titanic! well, I used to.
can't find it.
or, I should probably sleep.
but, nahhh (:

damn, I have 2 extremely painful ulcers
and a friggin' bubble on my lower lip.
I think I taste blood :/

Monday, December 21, 2009


I'm pretty exhausted
was forced to wake up pretty early to clean up around the houseee!

anyway, Sims is pissing me off.
I've been trying to get it all straightened out,
but there're tweeks here and there.
ohmygod. I'm so frustrated!

never mind.
brother's coming back tomorrow! (:
and I think, so are the other two younger ones!
haven't seen them all in 5 days ++

I Wanna Fall in Looove

back from Malacca.
pretty tired since it's kinda late.

anyway, Elyas just callled!
he'll be back on the 1st of January :/
told me he got himself a 100 pound limited edition Liverpool jersey while he was at ANFIELD!
with signatures all over them! ): blaghh. wish I were rich?
and he got me a keychain with Fernando Torres on it! :D
he also said that he bought crazy a lot of jerseys
and that it snowed!

I have to wake up early tomorrow -.-
just got home,
and no one else is home,
so I'll be waking up to,
a huge pile of laundry,
dog crap,
dirty dishes,
unpacked clothes.
all of it just waiting for me to be cleaned up.
-.- mom.

I need to learn how to bottle up.
to just leave all my anger, frustration, sadness, whatever it is
and just ignore it.
I'll have to get used to it.

to not care what you think
to not care what you say
a little self-confidence
a little ignorance to my insecurities
a little less self-consciousness
and to just smile,
when I hate you.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Let It Out, Let It Out

I'm going home tonight! can't wait.
gosh, I miss home so much!

woke up this morning and went to eat chicken rice balls for lunch.
then took an extremely looong walk.
parents bought some paintings.
and we came back.

wedding dinner later (:
then, off to go home!

ish, why do you do this? -.-
or maybe it's me?
I try not to be annoyed.
but, it's hard.
I need to rant,
but I can't.
gahh, this frustrates me.
but, screw you. it's not gonna get to me.

Liverpool lost 2-0 to Portsmouth. -.-
still bugging me.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

We Need to Talk

gahhh! hoooww?
how the hell are Liverpool currently losing to Portsmouth
that is badddd!
and Agger is playing,
Fernando Torres is playing,
Dirk Kuyt is playing!
what's wrong with the team?
unless Xabi Alonso and Alvaro Arbeloa were lucky charms or something.
this is BAD!

anyway, had a pretty cool day,
woke up for breakfast then headed to Muar
to.. buy TREES!
yeah, pretty odd
but, we went to look at trees to buy
got that done then came back here to Malacca.
lepak all day,
went for dinner and took an extremely looong walk (:

will be back tomorrow night! (:

Friday, December 18, 2009

On Cloud 9

wooohooo! (;
I've been pretty much living the life.
yesterday, I packed up and left the house with Eening to Gardens.
parents booked a room in the Gardens hotel and Eening and I were off to walk around before Han Jun's birthday celebration.
so, we met up with Brandon Charles and Jerrick and bought something for Han Jun and then went to Red Box
I had fun!
it was so funny.I don't sing much, but everyone else was.
and I really enjoyed myself (:

and here's the biggest part, TAN JIANN LEE, to whom I might as well dedicate the post to
ohmy, he got me a birthday present and insisted I opened it there and then
he got me SIMS 3! you have no idea.
it's so crazy expensive.
and I feel bad that he bought it for me, but I am EXTREMELY grateful!
ahhhh! (: made me sooo happy.
extremelyextreeeemely happy!
it's so unbelievable!
I literally smiled myself to sleep!

so, woke up this morning after my night in Gardens Hotel
and on the way to Malacca!
I'm now staying in Majestic Malacca for the night,
it's fully booked tomorrow night,
hopefully I have a place to stay.
EVERYWHERE is booked.
since it's the public holidays and there's the weekends.

I'll be back on Sunday night! (:


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

We've Been Distant, No?

yes, Brandon Flowers is SO sexy (;

I noticed, my blog posts have no picture (:
yes, the posts are extreeemely dull.
but, I don't expect anyone to read them,
it's just for me to rant away (:
I also realised, my updates are a day late
because I update after 12 quite often :/

yesterday, I went for reflexology.
I nearly died.
now, my foot hurts like crazy.

anyway, Kok Eu and Ni Ahn are going for camp tomorrow
I've stopped going :D thankfully, my parents don't instruct it anymore
so, tomorrow, I'll be going over to Eening's for lunch!
can't make it for the KLCC trip with Jiann Lee and Friends :/
so, Thursday, the outing with Teoh Yen Nie got cancelled
which, sucks. 'cause I was really looking forward to it,
and I was planning to shop for birthday presents then!
so, I can't.
then I'm going to Gardens in the evening for Han Jun's birthday.
and on Friday! I'm going to Malacca with mommm!
there's a wedding on Sunday. woohoo!
no idea whose, though.

I would LOOVE to go for the Glastonbury Festival some time.
it looks SOOO nice!
or go to any concert for that matter.
haven't been to one since MTV World Stage right here in Malaysia.
but all the huge ass concerts look like loads of fun!
O_o I wanna gooooo.
but, then again, I want a lot of things.
well, life is such -.-

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

As We Hold Hands

Kat and Eening had come over today (:
we watched (500) Days of Summer. it was overall a pretty okay movie.
then they went back.
so, tomorrow, I'll be going to school to pay the fees, buy books and uniform.
plans with Amelia have been cancelled, so, I'll be going to Eening's house on Wednesday for lunch!
then, on Thursday, I think I'll be going for Han Jun's birthday thing (:
later on, off to drive around with mom!

I'm already at the 31st episode of East of Eden!
just started it.
so, another 26 more episodes more.
which, sounded a lot less in my head until I typed it out. :/

I need to buy birthday presents.
I owe quite a number of people some presents.
but, I'm EXTREMELY broke.
as usual

Monday, December 14, 2009

We Slowly Fall Down, and Crash

yes, I'm sad.
I think football is unhealthy.
Xabi Alonso was watching the match. :/
wonder why.

anyway, Eening and Kat are coming over tomorrow!
and I'll have to catch up on chores before they arrive.
so, I won't be able to go out tomorrow, apparently with Wei Jiat, Dickson and Ng
and then on Tuesday, I'm going to school to get books and uniform and also to pay the school fees
have to get everything done with my sister 'cause my mom'll be busy.
and then I'm going to Amelia's house on Wednesday! until Friday.
which would mean I can't make it for Han Jun's birthday celebration! :/
and then Friday I'll be going to be around Malaysia with the mommm!

busier than I thought?

Sunday, December 13, 2009

You Know It's Gonna Bleed Somtimes

still crazy punished.

anyway, today, I went to Centre Point for some UK College Forum.
and I saw Jiann Lee and Han Jun there! LOL
huge surpriseeeee!
sooo, I applied to Concord, Ellesmere and Plymouth.
I guess that's great (:
all done.
just, have to wait for a few weeks for some end result.

GOSH! I've been watching Desperate Housewives, the 5th season.
and I LOOOVE Jackson with Susan! but I love Mike and Susan.
I like Katherine. but I don't like Katherine with Mike!
but I can't believe he doesn't love her anymoreee!
shows tend to always go the opposite direction of what I want. -.-

Thursday, December 10, 2009

You Can't Have Everything

ohgosh, I am back online.
I got grounded that day.
long story.
then, I was banned from the computer.
but now I'm unbanned.

been a few frustrating days, really.

mom's been a real pain in the butt,
kokeu too. ish.

sigh, I've got so much to blog about,
but, yet, I don't feel like blogging just yet.


okay, I think I feel like blogging now.
it's about, 1:45 in the morning, though.
anyway, I've been going The Killers crazy.
and I would just amazingly LOVE to go see them in Singapore in January ):
their concert in Royal Albert Hall in London just looked so amazing.
dangit, I extremely wish I were there
they aren't coming to Malaysia.
bloody hell, I LOOOOVE themmmm!

anyway, I've been forced to wake up at 9:30 every morning.
to do the chores.
so, I'd be waking up to search for any bottles and cups or dirty dishes around the house then washing them, then cleaning up a bit, sweeping around then mopping. and if there's any, I grab the laundry and fold them, iron them and put them back in the rooms.
yeahp, I've been grounded.

holidays might be ending in a quick flash,
and it honestly scares me to death!
I wanna do sooo many things!
I haven't even gotten to anything. lol

I loooove the Killers. :D


it's exactly 2:35am now.
and I have to wake up at 9:30am.
so, I'll be sleeping extremely soon.
was planning to watch East of Eden,
but, guess not anymore.
I'm so crazy on The Killers now,
I just can't get enoughhhhh! (:
blaghhh. Brandon Flowers, I loooove.
I feel so crazy obsessed!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Maybe I Was Mistaken

lie after lie after lie.
you just never stop
even when there wasn't a point to lie in the first place.
how it annoys me,
you just keep on pissing the crap outta me!

I'm seriously in such a foul mood.
my mind's going crazy for no reason at all,
and youtube is being SO annoying!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Give Me the Green Light

I stayed the night at Huiyi's along with Kim.
going there again later (:
jeez, I've got SO much time.
I just have no idea what to do with them.
and my youtube is being really slow.
a 40-second video is taking almost 20 minutes to load.

I don't know what to do.
what I'm supposed to do.
when I'm just stuck without a clue.

Friday, December 4, 2009

The Enemies I've Made

today, was a pretty dull day like the rest.
promised myself to watch East of Eden.
but, I didn't
I'm going for a sleepover.
it's a little late, but, she's not in yet.
so, we'll have to wait.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Red Guitar

gosh, I'm exhausted!
I got the Kris Allen and Adam Lambert album yesterday
and so far, I'm EXTREMELY sad to say, that I find the Kris Allen one nicer :/
Adam Lambert could sing better songs. but I don't know why he doesn't

anyway, I watched New Moon with Ni Ahn and Kok Eu yesterday.
to me, I find it better than Twilight.
their acting has seriously improved
although it still isn't good.
the book is seriously just so much better
the book is realllly good.
the movie, is a little :/ ekk.
but I guess, it's tolerable.

I woke up early this morning.
like, extremely early. :/
went to Jiann Lee's house.
reached at like, 10am.
to stone -.-
until everyone came late.
which were Samantha, Han Jun and his sister, Jerrick and Brandon Charles.
and left at about 4pm for dental (:
had cendol and rojak, yummm.


Wednesday, December 2, 2009

If Tomorrow Never Comes

wow, I'm tired.
well, it's 2am.
but, I've been feeling pretty exhausted.
mom's been making do chores.
for some reason, she doesn't want ANYONE else to do it, but me.
when my brother helped she seemed a little bugged -.-
so this morning, she waited for my brother to leave and texted me about the chores while she was at work -.-
it's probably 'cause I've been lazing my butt off.

I spent my day at home.
doing nothing.
played Monopoly with the siblings and all.
I think I'm going to OU tomorrow with the family (:

Monday, November 30, 2009

Will You Meet Me Halfway?

gosh, Johnny Depp is crazy sexy. mmmm (:
so's Brad Pitt. :O
and Ryan Reynolds!
I've been watching a LOT of tv.
Katy Perry is SOO beautiful! blaghh. Looove her.
and Pixie Lott is an AMAZING dancer.

I'm tired :/


herlooos, it's about 2:30am noww.
watching tv -.-
I've been so ekkk.
but I went to the park today!
with Huiyi and Sherren. traded stories and all.
good to see them (:
I have some "meeting" with an agent or something.
trying to apply to Concorde College :/
among the thousands of people that apply, what the hell are the chances that I get in? :/
this sucksssss.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

What We All Want

filled with joy, Liverpool wins 2-0 against Everton!
harray, hurrah! :D
things're up with the parents :/
I've been feeling a little crazy lately.
just, keeping sane.
like everyone else in the world.

Tesha has been bored.
I can never understand what Jamie Carragher says.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


wow. today has been pretty exhausting.
I had awful sleep.
just dying of pain.
mom's been in a bad mood.
which sometimes really bugs the living crap outta me.
I'm so tired!

anyway, the song Leave by Matchbox Twenty is soooo nice (;
makes me just wanna sleep off to the song.

ohmygod! I just recalled my dream. lol.
extremely, EXTREMELY weird dream.
just, too weird. O_O


okay, it's almost 3 in the morning.
and I just need to let some stuff out.
I might be going crazy over here.
gosh, yesterday, as creepy as this may sound, I was laughing to myself.
I was laughing at everything.
just surfing through the net, and giggling and smiling to myself.
I found it a little creepy, but, probably no harm there.
and now, I'm finding myself TEARING? and then crying?
so, yes, I think I might just be going a little crazy there.
gosh, I'm screwed.
and I just feel like my mind's about to implode.
it's all haywire.
and I don't even know why, I've got nothing in particular to feel anxious about!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Little By Little

today was a pretty okay day.
I went to Bangar Shopping Centre for lunch.
at Chilli's
the steak was awwwwful!
but everything else was pretty okay (:
then we walked around and then left to Space
looked at a few (extremely expensive) furniture.
they were SOOO nice.
jeeeesus christ.

anywayyy, I'm craving so badly for fruits right now.

Thursday, November 26, 2009


blagghh, it's almost 3:40am and I don't know what I'm doing awake.
I'm currently watching East of Eden. kinda moving slowly with it :/
Eening showed me the Japanese comic, Hana Yori Dango.
the original story line of Boys Over Flowers. I think it's much nicer
and I prefer the main guy in the comic compared to in Boys Over Flowers.
and I don't like the "Ji-Hoo" of the comic, I (of course) prefer the Hyun Joong of the show.

anyway, I think I'll just watch a little more of East of Eden and then head to bed. (;
I have a killer ulcer.
thankfully it's just 1, and not like, a whole bunch of them.
but it's crazy painful!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Hypocritical You

I like my things organised,
each item placed where it's supposed to be placed.
and you agreed.
agreed and suddenly disagreed?
you take it, you put it back.
we have sufficient amount for everything to be put into place.
why're you suddenly complaining now?
you dug your own grave.
but refused to go in it,
and not know your wrongs.
you take my things, and just leave them around.
which, actually, is fine by me.
I'll just put them back.
but then you get them dirty and you just leave it there,
I know it's not any intention to bug me.
but it's your lack of consideration that you don't see.
and then you get mad at me.
which by now, I've already stopped to care.
but jeez, stop to think and look at what you're doing.
I guess we all hate each other once in a while.

hellooooo, it's been dull holidays.
I haven't really been doing much. ekkk.
everything's just so, mediocre and nothing.
that it feels like we're moving in slow motion.
just trying to get through the day.

I don't want to move. :/

you seem to purposely dislike what I like,
and then like what I dislike.
screw you. I give up (which, apparently, I easily do give up -.- )

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


jeez, way to make me feel any better.
thanks, for the little things you've said that you didn't realize actually felt like knives.
you could've at least acted like you gave two cents about it.

blaghh, holidays have been so, nothing!
it hasn't exactly been boring,
but all I've been doing is watching tv, playing cards with the siblings, going online.
which I guess isn't exactly BAD.
but still, sigh.


there's sooo much I can do.
and that I want to do.
I haven't been reading much,
so I really should keep reading.
I wanna do some sudoku too.
and I need to finish East of Eden.
there's so much, that I just don't know where to start!
the holidays can get pretty overwhelming,
I'm getting tired just by doing nothing.
I've been sleeping maybe a little too much.
gaining back the sleep I lost for the year, maybe?

something's wrong with my hip.
it's aching.

You and I Both Loved

is it me,
or are your constant insults and the constant act of you degrading me getting a little old?
is it me,
or do you just not hear what you say?
is it me,
or do you think I don't have the right to have at least a little bit of time to wallow in self pity?
is it me,
or do you not get that sometimes, they get a little offensive?

Monday, November 23, 2009

Zoned Out

you, you're killing me.
it's as if you can't do anything at all.
and I feel the serious need to help.
just, make you do something.
I'm not trying to be evil.
but you need to be able to DO something.
and you and everyone else seem to find it hard to understand my frustration.
but damnit, I'm trying.

anyway, I looove the song Somewhere Only We Know by Keane.
always have. (;

gots to gos!

Sunday, November 22, 2009


I'm at home alone.
the family went out for lunch
'cause they refused to wait for me to shower first -.-
claiming that I take too long.

anyways, yesterday was a pretty bleghh day.
nothing much.
went for lunch at Wendy's in Jaya One
then dinner at TGIF in OU.

Liverpool drew 2-2 to Manchester City.
which was when Elyas and I decided to become Bluenoses
Bluenoses are what the fans of Birmingham City F.C. are called.
they beat Fulham 1-0 yesterday.
at least someone won.

I'm now watching Hot Blood online, since I've missed the passed few episodes.
and this weird dude keeps using idioms and metaphors and similes.
it's weird.

also, I have no idea how to use eBay.
I was thinking of selling my Korean dramas 'cause their boxing is ugly.
yeah, it might be a little weird to do that
but they sell nicer ones with a cheaper price than I bought it for!
which is like my Sims 3 incident all over again -.-

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Xave Me

GAHH, I'm so tired of everything!
I'm still mad that my Sims 3 is so screwed up.
and then to find out that I paid so much money for my dramas.
when I could've bought them for a cheaper price and a nicer box!
and nowadays I've been feeling so anxious and just pure urshhhkedurshh!
Liverpool are now 2-2 at HOME, at ANFIELD.
after a while, it gets pretty disappointing.
it's kinda hard to take it. -.-

oh, Kat left for Australia this morning.
but she'll be back in December! :D


I don't move houses a lot.
but I don't think I like it.
I mean, I have to move in like, 5 weeks!
it's all so sudden.
and I'm supposed to pick what I want to keep,
what I want to throw,
what I might want to throw but still want to keep.
and I'm looking at everything,
and I don't know WHAT I wanna do with it all!
I don't wanna move.
I want lunch

it's hard to trust when you're not being upfront.
all the more when you start to lie.
stop giving hope when there really isn't any.

Friday, November 20, 2009

The Thoughts are Saddening

I just finished the book I got from Eening.
kinda nice.
it's funny, definitely.

didn't go anything today.
nothing is planned for tomorrow.
and the day after
and the day after.
gosh -.-


you don't see it.
your lack of consideration.

hmm, I missed the 4th episode of Hot Blood,
but I can catch episode 5 and 6 tomorrow and Sunday.
hope I won't forget it again and I won't be lost :/

I'm getting that feeling again.
I've been getting it pretty often,
and now that it's the holidays, I'm getting it more strongly.
anyway, I feel like having ALL the dvds in the world.
all the shows in the world.
and I could just watch ANYTHING!
that would be nice (:

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Was Just Wondering, Maybe Even Hoping.

school's overrrr!
holidays have officially started.
not sure what I'm going to do :/
there's nothing I planned on doing.
nowhere I'm going to go!

anyway, we won GOLD for basketball yesterday.
and then had an amazing night at OU together.

the whole class went to OU for a class outing.
it was pretty funny, having 20 over people walk in a giant group.
but it was loads fun! (:
too lazy to get into details.



okay, okay.
I'm not doing much, so I decided to update a bit (:
(or a lot)
and I'll watch East of Eden after this.


after we all lost in netball,
we decided to stay back for a while for a little fun
played some "basketball"
it's like, footketball
see, it was raining HEAVILY.
so, we went to the amphitheatre,
and there aren't any hoops,
so, we just marked a spot where, you'd have to get the ball past the line.
which was really easy, but yet, tricky.

after that, I went to OU with my brotherr
got 22 tickets to Time Traveler's Wife,
got reservations at TGIF for 27 people.
which was when I saw Sticky!
they have this new place at OU,
where they sell those sweets you can get from Australia!
I got excited with my brother.
but we had to leave fast.


huge drama over basketball.
but anyway, we played.
and won! (: which made us really happy.
Eening and I had to go through a HUGE jam on the way home
got ready and off to OU!
yada yada, went for movie.
which wasn't bad. but, wasn't that great either.
after that, all 20+ of us as a WHOLE walked all the way to TGIF.
dinner was LOADS fun.
took a bunch of pictures and everything (:
I had a blast!
oh, not to forget, I bought my Fernando Torres book


woke up early for school.
which I extremely regret going for.
but, after break, it was all pretty okay I guess (:
the emoness felt like it was going to be the end of the world or something.
we took a bunch of fun pictures together and everything.

I think that sums it up?

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Unless It All Backfires

okay. everything's settled.
reservations, movie tickets.
only issue is the money. -.-
since everyone refuses to pay.
all haywire!

anyway, had netball matches today.
we lost.
both teams.
so heartbreaking.

so, I'll be going to Eening's house tomorrow, before school.
and then, after school, OUTING!
I hope it turns out okay.
although there're a crazy amount of people going,
it should be okay?

fingerscrossed. x

hope we win for basketball tomorrow. :/

fingerscrossed. x (again)

Monday, November 16, 2009

Heck, I Don't Even Know Me

My internet has been exceptionally slooooow lately.
anyway, went to school today- which I extremely regretted- for interclass.
we had interclass.
which, sadly, we lost.
it was a crazy tricky team.
they're gooood.

okay, so Eening and I have been planning the class outing.
which has been crazy hectic for my mind.
'cause it's planned to be held this Wednesday, which gives me pretty limited time.
so, it's almost done.
and I'll be getting tickets and making reservations tomorrow.
wow, I just realized that there's probably more than I think that needs to be done.

never mind,
a bunch of us stayed back today.
for a little netball practice
which was a lot of fun,
but extremely tiring.
we have netball semi-finals tomorrow
and the guys have a netball game too!
hope we do well.

I think that pretty much sums it all up that I needa talk about.
can't think of anything else (:

Sunday, November 15, 2009

It's Always Greener on the Other Side

awful day.
awful, awful day.


You just have no idea how sometimes, I just hate you.
beyond description.

Quack You.

blagh, I'm tired.
but I feel like taking a late shower.
which I will soon (:
I didn't go for the education fair.
whole looong story.

anyway, I had quite a long day today.
and it was like, a lot of meals O_o
started off with lunch at Teow Chew Meng nearby.
we walked there
(note this: walking to Teow Chew Meng. something I'll be missing when I MOVE)
then, we decided to go to Pavillion
since my mom was going for Barbie's 50th Anniversary Charity Auction thing.
so, after lunch, we were off!
then, we did a little shopping.
I bought a nice shirt from Gap (:
and then headed off to Times bookstore.
I was looking for El Nino: My Story.
but, they didn't have it.
instead, they had the Fernando Torres Biography.
which I ended up buying (;
the Times bookstore there is just LOVELY by the way.
gahh, I love it.
and then we ended up eating at the cafe 'cause the brother and sister were hungry -.-
right after our pretty long meal,
we headed off
on the way back, dad was like "chicken rice for dinner?"
sooo, we went for chicken rice dinner.
I'm practically still full :/

anyway, change of plans, I'm moving, yes.
but! on the 1st of January.
how crazy is that? ):

also, I came home and wrapped the book I got.
and decided to cross-stitch (:
gave up after like, 1 part of it.
took SOO long.
so I did a little bit of a bracelet thing,
which now I'm now too lazy to do.
and now, I'm here (:

blaghh, all in all, today was a pretty good day!
going to Eening's house tomorrow with Kat.
Kat pierced her ears!
also, Eening and I planned an outing for Wednesday after school.
and I really hope people turn up.
blaghh. not so easy to plan a big outing.

g'night, World (;

oh, also, my mom spent RM5,000 today.
during the auction.
and bought a gown -.-
which she found extremely ugly.
loong story.


blagh, it was like, 'snap'
and all of a sudden, I'm in such an ekkkk mood.
sigh. :/
whyy, yoouuuu!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

X, Cross It Out

East of Eden is a crazy show.
it's driving me nuts.
all the scenes are like AHHHH

anyway, I'll be going for an education fair thingy tomorrow in KL
hope it goes well?
not sure what time it starts, though

also, I collected my specs and due to the increase of power,
the specs are really giving me a headache.
but, I have to wear it, get used to it and stuff.
aghh. it's really annoying.

I'll be going to sleep after a little bit more of East of Eden (:

To Write Love on Her Arms.

Friday, November 13, 2009


the title has more meaning that you think (:

anyway, went to school today.
we had our basketball rematch.
which went pretty well (:
although, having difficulties at the beginning of the match,
we won 2-0
so we'll be in the finals against Columbus.
and they look pretty scary.
okay, about today's match.
it was pretty intense.
and right before the match started,
Eening was like, "oh shit like. we got no hope anymore" yada yada yada -.-
she keeps saying that.
but I, who felt extremely motivational for some reason, thought we could do okay.
and we did! (: of course, we were the underdogs.

after school, went to the nearby hor fan restaurant. yumm (:
and bought some cross-stitching thing which is so much more expensive than I would've imagined.
EVERYTHING IS SO NEARBY! I'll be getting my specs later I think?


I'm moving.
to Damansara Heights
in 3 months.
we've had the Damansara Heights house for a while now.
never stayed in it.
was going to sell it as well for the money.
turns out, not selling it anymore.
so, we'll be staying there!

I'm going to miss SS2. seriously.
  • the convenience like the everything that's within walking distance. the restaurants with alllll the good food, the optometrist, the bookstore, the convenience store, the store with the cloth, the store with the sewing things, the store where I get my Korean shows, the store where I get the regular shows, the store with ANYTHING. literally EVERYTHING is gettable in SS2!
  • One Utama and Curve are nearer as well.
  • I love my house. ):
  • I'm gonna miss my neighbours
I'm going to lose SO MUCH.
and gain almost nothinggg. blaghh. this is sad.
I'm EXTREMELY tired now. ekk.
watching East of Eden.
I think I'll be going for an education fair tomorrow and KLCC or something?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Get by with a Little Help from My Friends

didn't go to school (:
Eening didn't go either, thank god.
been watching East of Eden the whole time.
the songs are soo nice and show is driving me crazy.

tomorrow, I'll be going to school.
we have a basketball rematch.
which kinda worries me.
I'm kinda reluctant to play. it's so ekk.
hopefully we can have netball as well.
so we can get it done.

so I guess, school tomorrow.
now, I'll get back to East of Eden since I'm kinda slooow

I can't stand you. really.
and believe me, how I'm trying to tolerate the shit I have to put up with.
I was hoping for a change, we were hoping for a change.
but damn, why were we so dumb to believe you would
I can't stand you. really.

86,400 Seconds in a Day

I loove Adam Lambert.
but I'm definitely a Kris fan as well,
can't help it, but he looks extremeeely cute in the latest video. (;

anyway, I'm up.
going to bed soon I guess.
I wasn't planning on going to school.
and I REALLY don't want to. ekk.
damn, I feel like dyingg!
but, Eening's going to go :/
so, I'll just teman her.

was watching East of Eden
and it's going to drive me crazy!
everything's like O_O
I thought it'd be a predictable show and all.
but, 56 episodes really makes you wonder.
I'm not in the midst of the 17th episode! woohoo.
but, still lots more to go.
and it's really, A LOT of crazy shit that's happening!
blaghh, wonder how they end this thing.
jesus christ!
save me.
I want to continue watching,
but, I have to go to school tomorrow.
EKK. so reluctant.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

In My Battery-operated Car

I don't know why, but I'm in an extremely motivational mood.
anyway, here're a few highlights of the day:

  • missed school
  • went over to Eening's house at about 9am.
  • watched My Girl and East of Eden at Eening's
  • supposedly had a netball match, but the teacher was being all funny
  • had a basketball match which we lost, and there was a wholeee lot of drama. and the thing is, I don't mind. at first I was a little bugged, just fighting for our rights. maybe we'll have a rematch. but I'm just so lazy, I don't think I'd mind if we just lose this thing :/
  • I can't find my specs, lost it somewhere in school.
  • told my mom about losing the specs and she said "try to find it" I responded with, "I can't find it!" she responds with, "go back tomorrow and look for it" no new ones for me :/
  • I wanna buy El Nino: My Story, but I should save.
  • I'm moving in 3 months, 'cause we sold the house VERY, VERY suddenly.
  • I'm really, REALLY going to miss my house. I mean, I LOVE IT! it's pretty, it's cosy, it's familiar, it can get a little scary, but it's familiar!
  • I watched Ji Hyun marry Myung Hoon, which is just plain stupid. The person rapes you and it obviously affects your WHOLE life. how're you supposed to live through your EVERY DAY facing the person who did that to you. it's just crazy. and it makes me mad, as much as I love Park Hae Jin -.-
  • I wanna set some goals.
  • Hyun Joong is acting in a new show! (:
I will now continue the show (:

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Through the Trees

I wonder if the Low Shoulder band that starred in Jennifer's Body that sang the song
if it was really sung by ADAM BRODY? :p

anywhoo, we had a netball match against 4Aristotle today.
rough match, alright.
it ended a draw. 2-2
call this ironic if you must,
but Liverpool drew 2-2 as well.
which, I jut realised,
in the same way too!
we scored the first goal, and Aristotle came back with the equaliser.
and then they scored again, and we equalised.
ohshiit. that's creepy.
anyway, I thought it didn't go that bad.
I mean, could've been worse?

also, I'm planning to sleep early again, no naps.
never mind, I won't.
I think I'm going to school late tomorrow (:

big news, mom claims we're selling the house.
the couple just came, looked around and said, "okay, we'll buy it"
I'm proud of the house, 'cause it could just make a couple decide there and then.
but I'm sad, 'cause we're selling it! ):
there's the house in Damansara Heights and all.
but, we never stayed there. so, we'll definitely miss this house.
and that house needs renovation and all that crap.
so we'll have to rent another place while that place renovates.
and renovation hasn't even started! :/
gosh, how's this gonna work?

okay, watching East of Eden now.
the episodes on average are 1 hour to about 1 hour 10 minutes?
but this episode is like, 1 hr 22 minutes.
it's almost a movie!
gosh, they're sooooo longg O_o
at episode 12 now.
lots more to go.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Maybe, Someday.

the results were good today.
the guys' team for the class won 2-1 for netball
and the girls' team won some sort of score for basketball (:
but it's not over yet -.-
I feel SO exhausted.
probably 'cause I slept pretty late.
went to bad at 4 plus am.
Jiann Lee made me stay up -.-
so, I've planned.
I'm going to continue East of Eden
'cause I've missed Park Hae Jin oh-so dearly,
then, have dinner.
and then after a while, I'll sleep.
wake up at 5am to catch up on the Liverpool score (don't let me down by the way)
and then there's school tomorrow (:

That Would Cost Your Happiness, Please?

woohoo (:
I'll be going to school tomorrow.
there's basketball match, I think?
or netball?
anyway, I watched This Is It with Am, Jeannie and Eening today.
and then I watched East of Eden (a bit of it) with Am when the rest went back.
Park Hae Jin is so cute, by the way.

so, today was nothing much.
except, now, there's the whole Chelsea and Man Utd thing.
and later on, Liverpool will be playing with Birmingham.
I feel, like I'm giving up. seriously, I don't even bother with football anymore.
well, I try not to.

the best part about typing,
is that, no matter how sad or pissed off you are,
when you add a smiley at the end of the sentence,
people just assume you're doing great.
the smiley can be extremely convincing (:


it's 3:45am, Liverpool should be playing Birmingham about now.
and East of Eden just keeps adding characters in, and I'm getting so confused with EVERYTHING
and I hate watching shows that way.
really, just hate it.
I get so frustrated.
so, conclusion, I will sleep.
look at the Liverpool scores tomorrow morning.
do something about my "confusations"
and play tomorrow's match.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

This Is It

hellooo there.
my night wasn't exactly great.
but I'm the one to blame.
I was already prepared for a not so great night.
and was already ready to blame myself for it.

but now that I'm home, I feel better.
not great, but better.

anyway, going to Curve tomorrow.
with Am, Jeannie, and Eening.
gonna watch This Is It, AGAIN! :D
and probably have some KTZ after that
and yada yada.

can't wait, I'm hoping tomorrow'll be a good day!

you're competitive, but you just don't see it.
you wanna be great, but you're trying to be humble.
you wanna be the best, but you're not getting far, and it doesn't satisfy you.
someone does that, and you just wanna do it too, hoping you'd be far better.
you think you're great, but you're not.
you're just an average person, that does average things.
and you're just gonna have to deal with it.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I Feel the Salty Waves Come in

I just watched Jennifer's Body "today" with Shafiq, Elyas, Jian Yong, Jas, Ee Lin and Dickson.
a little retarded and also a little creepy.

anyway, I was just doing the Su Doku book that Elyas got me from Australia.
which I feel extremely grateful for (: 'cause mine's practically DEAD.
and it cost like, 15 AUD.
which is almost RM50!
and you can get a Su Doku book here for about, RM12. -.-
BUT, this isn't your ordinary Su Doku book.
it has NO actual value.
literally. NONE.
they only cage a few boxes and tell you the sum of that cage.
so, it's pretty tough.
I finished 2.
I didn't time the first one, but the 2nd took me 45 minutes and 10 seconds. :/
and the time limit was 17 minutes!
"the deadliest collection yet"
it makes my copy seem EXTREMELY easy.

also, there were supposed to be plans for baking at Eening's house with Kat and her.
but, she's got some basketball thing,
so, it's cancelled. :/

OH! and not to forget, I went to MPH to buy some stuff. (:
'cause I can't help but spend when I have money to spend!
anyway, I gathered and counted.
and it reached up to about RM20, give or take.
so I went to the counter.
the lady scanned everything and it stated on the price label thing "RM 6.40"
so I just looked around thinking probably she hadn't finished scanning all of it.
and she looks and me and says, "it's 6 ringgit 40 cents"
so I looked at her, SO confused.
and I was like, "huh?" I thought maybe the display had problems and I heard her wrongly.
and then she says, "RM6.40"
I asked, "are you sure? for all of that?"
and she said, "yeah yeah"
I just looked at her with a confused look.
and kept asking her if she was sure.
and she looked at me weirdly, probably wondering why I was looking at her weirdly.
so, I was expecting myself to walk out the bookstore and the alarms would go off.
then she'd know what I was talking about.
but, strangely, THEY DIDN'T GO OFF!
so I just went off -.-
turns out, she didn't charge me for the 3 stacks of coloured paper I bought.
which would sum up to about, 13bucks?
I felt guilty all the way home.
until I thought to myself, "this is a good thing! I just got lucky"
I don't believe in karma in the first place.
and if it's anything, I know that doing good, doesn't get you any far than doing bad does.
so, hmp (:

well, it's all pretty wordy.
but, I'mma continue East of Eden.
Park Hae Jin is sooo sexyy.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Thanks, Liverpool

I'm not going to school tomorrow.
which is so very aweshmoee.
I kinda promised that I'll be watching on the stall tomorrow.
but my mom's too lazy to pick me up from school anyway.
so, I'm sorry :/

I'm in the midst of Episode 8, yay.
and I love Kim Hyun Joong. (;

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I'm Waving My White Flag

faster progress today for East of Eden.
Episode 6!
they've finally grown up.
and Park Hae Jin appears.
it's weird, the guy's in Macao but he speaks Korean sometimes.
and Mandarin sometimes too, of course.

blaghh. other than the television,
everything's getting me moody -.-
my parents and stupid results in school.

sometimes, it's like you're trying to show that you're great.
when in actual fact, you just as normal as everyone else.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Self-Esteem? none.

I've been blogging pretty often lately.
'cause nowadays I've been getting pretty annoyed and frustrated.
it's really annoying.
sigh. and this could really just help me let it all out.

you know, some people probably would, the feeling when you've proven yourself trustworthy.
and you don't do anything to make someone doubt it.
but day by day,
they just, still don't seem to trust you anyway?
yeah, THAT. exactly that.
and how some just assume they're so good. -.-
with all the power in the wooorld
and they just seem to have that insecurity or self-consciousness that makes them have the need to claim their best.

I can't wait for school to be over. and EVERYTHING's over.
I need it.
let loose.
watch a WHOLE bunch of tv!
and everythingg.


I'm currently watching East of Eden.
which is progressing extremely slowly.
'cause I'm half-mindedly watching So You Think You Can Dance
and also on Facebook.
of course, I'm also chatting.
so, it's going realllllyyy slowlyy.

I loooove Kim Hyun Joong.
I need to meet him.
and I wanna meet SS501.
and I wanna. ekkkkkk.
shiiiiit. I looooove him (:


I'm trying to convince myself I don't hate you.
but it's getting hard. it really, really is.

blagh, I'm now watching East of Eden and the 3rd episode just ended. I think my eyeballs are gonna just fall out like going down a waterfall
I'm crying like crazy here. and it's only the end of the 3rd episode.
there are FIFTY SIX episodes. :/ lots more to goo!

Monday, November 2, 2009

'Till You're Screaming My Name

my results, awful.
I need to set my priorities straight.

anyway, I'm currently watching East of Eden.
blaghh. it's like so, jab jab

also, the funniest thing happened today with Amelia Chan.
ohgosh. retarded.

that's about it.
there're a bunch of game competitions going on in school.
and yada yada. -.-

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Break My Heart

Liverpool just lost 3-1 to Fulham.
and, I'm not in the mood to talk about it.

Adam Lambert's new single is outtt!
For Your Entertainment.
it's getting more and more catchy (:

I went to Elaine's house at Valencia just now for Halloween.

that's about it.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Huge Mistake

Eening says, expect the unexpected.
but then, if you expect the unexpected,
the unexpected becomes the expected
and the expected becomes the unexpected.

anyway, got back quite a few results today.
pretty scary.
blagh. I wanna watch so much tv.
and do so many things. but I am just so damn lazy.

Liverpool, Arsenal. 3:40am later.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Happiness is..

it is 5am. again.
and I am about to die.
I'll probably be waking up late tomorrow.
which, is not a good idea at all.
I have not studied Physics.
and I was hoping to do well.
I got hooked onto Private Practice.
and I cannot believe it just ended that way.
and, I need to rant.
so, here I am.

I cannot believe it ended with Addison and she's not with the oh-so charming guy!
married or not. he loves her. and I loove him. he's just, meltingly charming.
and, I checked, that was the last episode he appears in. which, SUCKS.
also, of course, VIOLET has a friggin' psychotic person who comes and wants to cut her because she claims Violet stole her baby. -.-
I'm dying here.

with, a Physics exam on Monday.
BUT, it is amazing to know that Monday, is the last day.
but then again, so far, my papers have been feeling crappy.
and I wanna do well!
so, I'm gonna go to sleep soon.
and wake up tomorrow and study.
knowing that I haven't even touched the experiments.
so, I'll just sleep.
in suspense.
that I might die from.
ohgosh, kill me -.-

Liverpool. tomorrow. :/

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Whatever that is Green

I haven't been updating for a while.
didn't find any interest to. :/
but now that it's 5am.
and I have Biology exams tomorrow,
I've decided to update.

so far, I've taken BM, Sejarah, English, Chemistry, Add Math and Moral.
some were REALLY bad. but some were okay, I guess? hopefully.
anyway, hopefully I'll be able to do okay for Biology.
fingerscrossed. x

anyway, Kris Allen has a single which is a cover of the Script's song and I think a video is coming out.
Allison Iraheta has a single.
and Adam Lambert's Time for Miracles is out! (; and the title of his album will be For Your Entertainment. and Lady Gaga wrote a song for him! that could be interesting (;
loooove Adam Lambert.

Liverpool JUST played against Lyon.
and lost -.-
2-1 Steven Gerrard was subbed out after about 25 minutes.
Fernando Torres wasn't fit to play.
everything just went shit.
they also lost to Sunderland. -.-
to a red beach ball.
Fernando Torres and Steven Gerrard didn't play then either.
sigh, things aren't going so well for Liverpool.
Benitez' fault? :/ 4 losses in a row.

okay, back to Biology (;

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I Know That We Could Be So Amazing

blagh, finalsfinalsfinals.
I really wanna do well.
do my best.
but it's killing me.
Sejarah, as usual, is killing me.
I HATE IT. eesh.
how does ANYONE do it?
I might just die now.

anyway, Adam Lambert!
so far, no one has heard ANYTHING about his album that's to be released on the 24th of November.
literally, no title, no nothing.
buttt! the song he has for the 2012 movie is sorta out.
I can't find the full song, but if you watch the preview, you can hear a little bit of the song -.-

okay, I need to prepare for Sejarah, sooo badly. ish.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Back to Good

do you have any idea how many people in the world smoke?
you'd be terribly amazed.
it's really, wow.

anyway, Year-end Exams are coming soon.
on the 12th of October. :/
I really can't wait for it to enddd! :D
I've been sorta studying?
Kok Eu borrowed his sister's iPhone.
and it has hell a lot of games in it, and I've been playing it like a nuts person.

anyway, Liverpool lost to Chelsea.
which is pretty much old news.
but, it still breaks my heart every time I think about it -.-

also, I'm kinda broke.
I wish I had more money.
I wanna buy things :D

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


gosh, I forgot to watch the Liverpool match!
I slept pretty early.
at around 11?
and woke up at about 5 something and now, I'm blogging.
Liverpool LOST?
2-0 to Fiorentina.
apparently the goals were really good.
but still, they LOST!


Sunday, September 27, 2009

Just Me?

I am really happy Liverpool won 6-1
but I think I'm gonna kill someone.
(it rhymes)
people are making me feel frustrated.

it's 5am.


Liverpool won.
no, no.
won is an understatement.
Liverpool thrashed.
although, thrashed might be an understatement too.
but, they beat Hull City 6-1.
I mean, sadly, Manchester United also won. 2-0
but, Chelsea lost! 3-1 to Wigan. depressing, ain't it.
but, they must've been dreaming if they thought they could win SEVEN games in a row?

anyway, I haven't EXACTLY been studying.
but yet, I have.
I have a little bit.
and that's good, I guess :D
I really want better results for FYE.
fingerscrossed. x

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


okay, I have not studied.
but I will :D
I most definitely will!
I've been youtube-ing like crazy. blagh.
not good.


Kris Allen has a new single.
well, it's a cover of The Script's "Live Like We're Dying".
at first I didn't like Adam Lambert's "Want" but it's starting to grow on me.
anyway, Kris Allen's version of the song is okay. but, it's not as nice as the Script's.
'cause, Danny O' Donoghue has that special twist to his voice.
I mean, the Kris Allen version would've been good.
but, when you cover it, you can't help but compare.
so, they should make him sing something more original or something.
something just, his?

anyway, Selamat Hari Raya!

I Could Use Somebody

here's a promise.
I, Ho Te-Sha, will study tomorrow.
I have to. I really do.
it's the holidays.
it's an opportunity to catch up on those that I'm completely lost in.

anyway, it's 'bout 4:30am now,
which, is extremely late.
so, I'll be sleeping soon.
Yeoh Eening will be going to Bangkok tomorrow ("later")

Adam Lambert's album is said to be out on the 24th of November?
I hope it sounds good.
and also does well.
I really like the songs on David Cook's album.
especially being compared to Archuleta's -.-
but, it's not doing as well and Archuleta.
I mean, I think he sold more copies.
but, Archuleta has been having more singles,
and the singles are really popular -.-

anyway, Tesha will study tomorrow :D

Monday, September 21, 2009

BAM, I fell.

okay, it's 2:40am on a Monday (Raya Holiday)
but I can't help but blog about my achievement.
I JUST painted my nails. and then came online.

by the way, Manchester United won Manchester City.
I wanted it to be a draw.
it was a huge con though.
they said 4 minutes injury time.
but they have 6 and a half minutes.
they should've drawn.
Chelsea are too strong -.-
won 3-0 to Tottenham.

anyway, back to my achievement.

yes, I realise the one on the left is no more than ordinary.
but I painted the one on the right too (:
well, I'm a lefty.
so, it was too risky to try it with my right hand.
wooop (: there're probably people who're thinking, "gosh, I do it 10 times better"
but, I'm happy with it! so, shhh! :D

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Please, Shut Up

Liverpool won (:
two goals by Fernando Torres
1 by Dirk Kuyt?
and WHU scored 2.

but besides that, I'm pretty much pissed off.
sometimes, I just feel like choking him.
he is so stupid.
yet, so arrogant.
so annoying.
annoying beyond description.
I feel like smashing him into the wall.
idiot -.-

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Really, REALLY

no one has ANY idea how this feels.
that I have bought my Sims 3 for RM292 ringgit to be exact.
from Australia.
when, it's only RM170.
my disc is green.
when the disc is actually coloured.
and, it's extremely laggy.
I really REALLY want it to at least WORK properly.

and this feeling.
the feeling of REALLY, REALLY wanting something to happen,
I wish my missing dvd would appear -.-
it HAS to be somewhere.
it's REALLY frustrating. sigh. :/

Got Time, But I Don't Mind

Year-end exams are REALLY soon.
I need to start studyinggg.

I just finished watchin Iljimae. and I can't help it, I really need to blog about it.
because it has just wasted so much time from my life.
I'm like, "whuuuut?" -.-
I don't even know if he dies in the end or not.
it's so incomplete, it's killing me.
I don't even find it that great, no idea why it was so popular.

anyway, Liverpool match later. against West Ham United
blagh, they haven't been doing exactly well.
especially Fernando Torres.
he has to start scoring -.-
but Liverpool really has to win.

fingerscrossed. x

Thursday, September 17, 2009


hey, peepoes.
I'm currently getting the class page done.
I want it simple but nice.
very simple, but very nice.
hope the idea in my head turns outs right.
I'm printing it on photo paper, so, I hope it's clear, and the teachers would stop rejecting it.
like they do every year! -.-

Liverpool soon :D
come on, Fernando Torres. you haven't been doing so well -.-

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Kanye West is Freaky

gosh, I'm kinda tired.
I was trying to do the stupid class page.
worked so hard.
and turns out, the application saves it in a different format. -.-
hard to explain.
but, whatever it is, it's friggin' frustrating.

Kanye West is freaky.

and, Justin Timberlake is aweshommme :D

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Elyas is "pro"

it's pretty late now.
and I'm kinda tired.
but, I'm online, youtube-ing and skype-ing.

I went out with Kat, Eening, Wen Chien and Michelle just now. :D
fuuun, fuuun (:
we watched the Ugly Truth. which I reaaaally enjoyed (:
funny show.
and then we used Wen Chien's laptop to watch Justin Timberlake's concert
goshh, sooo sexayyy :p

anyway, then, we went to Starbucks to do the video thingy when Kat and Michelle went off.
then, Eening went back.
then Wen Chien went back.
then I went back.

that pretty much some up my day. (:
I know my Physics results.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Losing My Way

this post is the number that is the square of 15.
I just noticed it before blogging.
so, i decided to point it out.
it's my 225th (:

anyway, my right hand is starting to be of better use.
since I can now write pretty well with my right hand.
due to having to use my right hand for the tests cause I electrocuted my left.
therefore, I am now a potential ambidextrous (:

tomorrow's Chem and Moral :/
sigh. I don't knowwwww.
I'm kinda tired.
but I've got a lot to study, really.

Kim Hyun Joong got swine flu ):
get welll!

Jade came over just now!
had some fun since I haven't seen her in AGES.

that pretty much sums up my day.
and also, I got my Add Math results.
pretty satisfied. (:


hello, I'm currently typing with a hand and a half.
I electrocuted myself yesterday night.
kinda funny story.

biggest disappointment yet: no super powers.

anyway, class test 4 is currently underway.
tomorrow, Physics!

also, Liverpool have a match against Burnley this weekend.
good or bad, I don't knoww.
I really need to studeh now.

so, I'm gonna go. and I'm gonna hang up my skype called with Elyas (:

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Don't Stop Believin'

it's like 3:30 in the morning. and I'm seeing things funnily. I should really sleep :/
Class test 4 has started.
already gone through Add. Math, Mod. Math and BM.
which, didn't exactly go too well :s
I really need to start studying.
finals itself isn't too far away either.

anyway, Panic! at the Disco has a new song.
for the Jennifer's Body soundtrack
it's called New Perspective.
it sounds much better live cause the studio version makes Brendon Urie's voice a little bit odd :/
but, it's a good song.

the other half of the band has a new song too.
they're called The Young Veins.
I only heard a song called Change.
but, I was too tired to wait for it to buffer.
so, I'll listen to it soon. but the first half of it didn't sound TOO bad. (:

g'night (:

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

They Never Fail to Disappoint.

heyy, I just got back from my Mt. Kinabalu trip.
aching everywhere, sunburnt here and there.
it's killing.
and I'm kinda such in an ekkkk mood now. ugh.
but I feel like watching some tv!
and sorry, I lost Elyas' phone :s

I'm in no mood,
so I'll just update about the trip some other time.
or never.

CT4 on Thursday.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Lying to Myself

ohmygod. this is gonna be random.
but, I just suddenly thought,
maybe I'm actually not a nice person at all.
but, I'm lying? :s like, lying to myself.
you know, I don't lie. but, maybe I do! ohmygod.
I'm starting to get a weird feeling about myself :/

I Feel It

you know, when you're not exactly doing anything,
and your mind just starts to wander,
so, anyway, it got me to recall
I lost my Boys Over Flowers dvd. -.-
yes, I know, I think about that a lot.
but, it just gets me so frustrated to think that it has to be SOMEWHERE.
but, I can't find it anywhere!

also, I realise, I'm not the only one that noticed Torres' change in attitude :/

I'm just gonna post the link up so I can read it another time.

The real problem was a curiously lacklustre Steven Gerrard and the new angry version of Fernando Torres who seems to have developed a temper over the summer that makes him less effective than when he treated every challenge with haughty indifference.

Sigh, Fernando Torres. buck upp.
or Aquilani! get well, I haven't seen what you've got (:

alsoooo, Elyas lent me all three seasons of Friday Night Lights.
I just started (:
and Class Test 4 is on Thursday after the holidays.
and now it's already Wednesday, I have yet to touch a book.
I'm going for the Kinabalu trip on Saturday. and it's until Tuesday. :/

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Dealing with Disappointment

that's gotta be a first.
first 3 matches.
and 2 losses.
last season, they only HAD two losses.
and now, the 2 are already here.
just waiting for more to come.

KIDDING, no more losses. PLEASE.
fingerscrossed, x.
come on Liverpool!
do us proud.

anyway, Fernando Torres' eye.
the bruise and bleeds from the Stoke City match.

it's all good! (:

header :s


slight movement.


walking off?

a bruise -.-

sighh, poor him.
he scored the goal for Liverpool though! (:

Standing Back Up

Liverpool are losing 2-0
to Aston Villa
ekkk, really breaks my heart.
and Fernando Torres is getting more and more disappointing.
he's diving, he's arguing, he's showing a face.
sigh. everything I thought he would never be -.-

but, his eye is bruised.
from the Stoke City match.
and it looks REALLY bad.
and at the same time, his jersey tore.
like, at the beginning of the match.
but, he still looks sexy as hell (:

Monday, August 17, 2009


why do you do this to me?
the only last season's top 4 that didn't win.
how seriously heartbreaking. -.-

Sunday, August 16, 2009

In My Dreams

ellooo, (:
I'm really sore.
I haven't been studying, I haven't done any homework.
but I wanna stay online :/
but, I can't!

anyway, I had the BEST dream last night.
I slept at around 6am.
and woke up at like, 3pm :/
if good dreams come around that time, I wouldn't mind doing it everyday!
I dreamt of Fernando Torres
and that I dated Fernando Torres! O_o
I know, he has a wife and kid.
but, :/ sigh.
anyway, then, halfway through, my mom woke me up.
BLAGHHH. and when I went back to sleep, I couldn't regain the dream -.-


blaghh, exhausted.
I know it's disgusting. I haven't showered. :/
I just got back from MTV World Stage and the post party at Euphoria.
had a friggin' blast! it was aweeshommme
christ, it was amazing.
the concert was amazing
the bands were really good
the singers were so charismatic.

I got to meet a few of them. (:
which was fun.
throat hurts though.
well, other than having an AWESOME time,
I have nothing much to say here :/

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

First Step to Solving A Problem, Admit You Have One

I'm obsessive.
and I don't like it.

I know I haven't blogged in a while.
totally forgot :/
but now, I need to get things off my mind.

everything is being retarded.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

What A Way to End the Night

someone, please tell me if I've died.
gosh, I feel like shiiiiit.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

We Change, We Wait

gahh, I'm starting to fall sick.
I think ?
anyway, I'm having the most depressing weekend.
everyone's at Taman Negara
and usually, I always go out for lunch and/or dinner with the family.
but, we haven't been -.-
and I'm just home watching a bunch of tv and playing Facebook games.
I haven't even done any homework :/


Saturday, August 1, 2009

Devil in Me

I am pretty tired.
I slept at about, 5am and woke up at 10am for tuition in the morning.
was watching One Tree Hill
gah, I love it.
and the songs are damn good.
Kate Voegele is REALLY talented.
I like Chase with Brooke.
but, :/

I watched Michael Jackson just now
shiiiit, he's like, talented beyond talent.

anyway, I wanna watch so many shows.
but tomorrow's already Sunday
and I haven't done ANY homework :/

it's August, guys (;

Friday, July 31, 2009

King of Hearts

today was an extremely, extremely unproductive day.
I went to school.
by the way, with Eening, Kat and Elyas gone to Taman Negara.
but it was okay cause I talked with the rest of the class
which I found pretty fun.
it's Jerrick's birthday today (:

anyway, I came home and took like, a 4 hour nap.
woke up.
and now I'm watching 17 Again.
I never liked Zac Efron,
but he looks damn good in the movie
reallly (;
and he can act pretty well actually.

gosh, today has been like,
and I didn't exactly get anything done -.-
I feel bad :/

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Even After A While, It Still Hurts the Same

everyone is going to Taman Negara tomorrow.
except me.
sigh. I'm gonna loner like hellllll.
my dad actually allows me to skip school.
but, I think I'll go.
Chem experiment to do.

I'm feeling so ugh nowwwwww.

If the Sun Don't Shine

helloooo, humans.
I am EXTREMELY exhausted.
words can't describe.
and my feet hurt.
I came back from Kuala Selangor.
I had so much fun!
it was really fun
although tiring.

anyway, I'm way too tired to talk about it.
I'mma sleep. no joke.
school tomorrow.
then everybody goes to Taman Negara on Friday -.-

I think I was going to blog for a reason.
I think there was something in particular that was on my mind
but, too bad.
I'll see if I remember

bye (;
cheer up, Iman.
you know we all love you dearly.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Deep, Deep Down, I'm Happy

it's really late now.
I'm staying up to study some Biology.
I think it's going pretty well.
I'm starting to adapt to it.
which is really good.
I'm just taking a little break cause I'm like, about to fall asleep.

so, it seems like Adam Lambert has been doing well (;
Kris Allen as well.
which are my 2 favourites.
but Adam Lambert's definitely a plus.
he's too talented to describe, no kidding.
all the articles are talking about how well Adam's doing for the tour.
I guess Kris Allen as well?
would love to see them live. (:
Allison Iraheta and Matt Giraud as well.

anyway, tomorrow, I'm going to really start watching a lot of shows!
tests'll be over.
Fireflies at Kuala Selangor on Wednesday? (;

blaghh. I think I'm just stalling.
need to continue studying noww.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Torresic Cavity (;

I noticed something today. (:
I was having Bio extra classes.
and Ms.Yee said, "thoracic cavity"
and I thought she was going to say Torres
so I started laughing.
she was just going to say thoracic cavity.
I had a good day in school today, I guess.
despite the constant "so, Tesha, did you go to Singapore?"
which hurt me. like a stab in my heart.
and a lot of them were doing it. so, it was sad.
but other than that, I had a pretty good day.
laughed a lot.
my classmates are hilarious.

I actually watched the match last night. obviously.
but it was a delayed one.
gah, when Torres took off his shirt.
and Agger.
and Xabi Alonso.
gosh, makes it even worse that I wasn't there.
no joke.
and apparently, they were really amazing to the Singaporean fans.

I got back a few results today.
just 2. Sejarah and Modern Mathematics.
I got 97 for Mod. Mathematics.
and I got 45% for Sejarah.
I know people would be like, "WHAT? that sucks!"
but to me, I'm damn happy (:
it's over 40 -- 20 for structural and 20 for essay.
and I got NOTHING for structural but 18 for essay
which made me pretty happy.

was hoping to get back more results.
but, I guess tomorrow?

last test tomorrow.
my worst Science.

Why Don't You and I

I wasn't there.
do you feel how crushed I am
how badly I wanted to be there.
to see the whole Liverpool team?
dream come true :/

Andriy Voronin
Albert Riera (Assist: J. Mascharano)
Krisztian Nemeth (Assist: D. Kuyt)
Fernando Torres (Assist: D. Kuyt)
Krisztian Nemeth (Assist: D. Kuyt)

wow, Dirk Kuyt's on fire (:
wish I were there.
how badly do I.

shiiit, beauty by Riera.
I didn't exactly catch Voronin's
I'm still watching it (;

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Nothing But A Heartache

I'm still heartbroken over my Sims 3. no joke.
it's slow.
the disc sucks. -.-
my aunt offered to help me sell it on eBay.

and Liverpool
gosh. that's the worst.

Liverpool Day 1 in Singapore: After months of waiting, we are honoured to have Liverpool in Singapore. The Reds arrived in Singapore on Thursday afternoon and headed off to their designated hotel...Rafa Benitez was at the press conference with Ian Ayre, Fernando Torres and Yossi Benayoun. The LFC team had a private training session thereafter before calling it a day

Liverpool Day 2 in Singapore: The Reds had a private training session the morning and fans were treated to photos/autographs sessions by a few Liverpool players at various locations in Singapore. There was a public training session for the Reds at the National Stadium in the evening. Fans who had obtained training passes to gain entry not only get to see Liverpool in training but also were entertained by our very own Dr Fun. It was an eye-opener for the fans as many grabbed the opportunity to take a photo with him.

sigh. stupid.
I wanna be there so badlyyy.
bloody hell.

damn. I'm in a shit mood.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

How It Hurts

it's that time again.
where there's shouting everywhere.
throwing things.
it's late.
but it's not like it matters to them.
and I never know what's going on.
everything happening, and I don't know what's causing it.
then everything's fine. like it never happened.
but even the slightest noise, the slightest thud makes us paranoid.
makes us worry.
makes our hearts skip a beat just to stop thinking to make sure everything's fine.
even when it's totally quiet, we hear a soft shout out of paranoia.

it's that time.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Its About DiCaprio!

he's going to be acting in a new movie.
Shutter Island.
no idea what it's about, but, he's Leonardo DiCaprio (;
and Mark Ruffalo'll be in it too.
the guy from 13 Going on 30?
blagh, love Leonardo DiCaprioooo.

anyway, Class Test 3 is almost over. just the weekend studying to get through.
then Chemistry on Monday and Biology on Tuesday (:
tomorrow I'll be going to Klang for some pre-Kinabalu climbing exercises.
and on Wednesday, I'll be going to Kuala Selangor to see fireflies.
then on Friday, the bunch of them are going to Taman Negara, which I won't be.
and then following Friday, we'll be going for Kaki Blue. wooop!
pretty happening I guess :/

Looks Can Be Deceiving. No?

well, yes. Steven Gerrard does look like a lovely person.
like he wouldn't hurt anyone or anything.
as much as I do love him,
he admits, he punched the guy.
I don't know what to think.
he said it was self-defence cause he thought the DJ was coming at him.
but it all could be just a bunch of bull.
or maybe not.
I don't know.
but, I guess it's pretty disappointing.hope he's innocent.

also, I think I pity Beckham.
a lot.
he must be going through a hell of a bad time.
really. blagh, poor him.
he's also EXTREMELY gorgeous.
but still, hope everything turns out fine.

sigh, some things or some people are just, :/ indescribable.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


a few things frustrate me.
let's start with something that'5 fru5trating me now.

the letter "S" on my keyboard is being extremely idiotic.
so, mind me if I ju5t replace them with the number 5.
that'5 already bugging me.

I'm now watching the Liverpool match again5t Thailand.
and ye5, I am EXTREMELY heartbrokened that I am not exactly there.
I mean, a bunch of Thai kids got to give Dirk Kuyt a birthday cake. -.-
bloody 'ell
it'5 REALLY sad that I'm not there.
and I have to 5tay in my room watching it on a 5creen.

2ndly, after school, I came home.
and my 5i5ter decided to go to the book5tore.
so, I walked there with my dad and her.
yada yada.
my dad went off first, 5o I walked back with my 5i5ter.
and a bird 5hat on my head.
it literally ju5t drop a piece of crap on my hair.
it really, PISSED me off. -.-

3rdly, I had bought 5ims 3 from Au5tralia.
for 100 Au5tralian dollars. which roughly equals to RM280, give or take.
and which was odd, when I opened up the cd, it was green.
like, with pictures, but they were in green.
kind of like the pasar malam cds that they 5ell.
which really bugged me.
and then, I find out that over here, it cost5 RM130 for it.
when I paid more than twice the amount.
and to add on, an EXCLUIVE COLLECTOR'5 EDITION, with 5ome limited edition pendrive co5t only RM169.
and I had bought mine for RM280+-
5igh. :/

4thly, I will not be going to 5ingapore to catch the Liverpool match because of the price, of course.
gosh, what I would do to go. really.
just watching the match again5t Thailand now already make5 me 5o 5ad.

5thly, I am 5till fru5trated over the lo55 of my Boy5 Over Flower5 DVD.
I have no choice but to feel convinced that it wa5 abducted by a bunch of curiou5 alien5 that were intere5ted in a Korean show.

5o there, my li5t of fru5tration5.
there're more jumbled up in my head. but I gue55 the5e are the main one5.
I got my Additional Mathematics Class Test 3 result5 back today.
it i5n't great, considering that the paper was actually pretty 5imple.
but, I gue55, 5ati5fying and no complain5.