Wednesday, October 27, 2010

When the Going Gets Tough

woah, I haven't blogged in a LOOONG time.
I'm just in such a crappy mood now.
WAYY crappy.
my 'time of the month' is probably coming.
SOO many things in my mind.
all these little problems.
and it's really bugging me. sigh
this feeling really sucks.
just makes me feel like tomorrow's not gonna come.
or that my days're just going to keep being like this :/

I hate this SO much. :/

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Same Ol', Same Ol'

helloo, I haven't updated in a loooong time.
sighh, I'm feeling a little ekkk.
but I don't know what's wrong.
I'm not sad. but somehow worried?
like, anxious? sighhh.

HELP ME. this always happens. blueghh.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Is It Confidence. Or Lack of Confidence?

beeeeep :D
having holidays now,
I kinda have to submit my MYE results to DLD.
ugh, I think I did really badly.
in a pretty ekkk mood. :/

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

System Overload!

another class tomorrowww!
I'm kinda tired.
but my room is crazy MESSYY!
I should do something about it.
and I wanna youtube, but the internet cannot get any slower!
actually, it can. but, y'know, I'm just over exaggerating.
sigh, I feel useless.
I'm like, just lazing around
and going Korean crazy! BADDD.


I'm feeling weird now.
I think it's a mixture of anxiety and being overwhelmed?
I'm not too sure. I think I'll sleep it off.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Artsy Fartsy

eeep, I've got my first Art exam tomorrow.
creepy huh?
apparently Art is going to be a really important subject for me in the future.
and I'm SO scared for tomorrow.
I'm getting so anxious.
I can't wait for after the test.
well, firstly, my art like, really sucks :/
sigh. so scared to screw up. and I'm not sure what I'll be drawing. and EEEP LAHH
and I don't think it's just art that's giving me the anxiety.
I feel weird.
like, Monday all over again.
eeep. eeep. eeep!

alsooo, I found a little sum-in (something).

Brandon Flowers, a Liverpool fan? :P

I saw this video,
and that scarf has a liverpool logo on it, with the word, "Anfield"
nicee (:

Saturday, May 29, 2010


wow, I have probably slept, a total of 14 hours.
14 hours. this week.
14 hours is the sum of the hours I have slept for the entire week.
and now, it's 5am.
and I'm not sleeping.
I think I have a disorder?
I just, don't feel sleepy sometimes.
and I haven't really been studying. gotta get to it!
I should sleep.

anyway, my exams have been a little :s
I hope I don't do too badly! eeeep.

I think I've become a 2pm fan.
but, kinda sad about Jaebeom. I like him (:

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Is Something Wrong?

I've got Add Math and Chem Paper 3 tomorrow.
technically, not tomorrow but later. lol.
I just watched episode 13 of Cinderella's Sister.
ohmahgawddd, I can't decide, I love both the guys!
but, maybe a little more on Taecyeon's side :p
nah, AGH, I'm not sure.

anyway, I slept at like 5:30am last night.
I'm REALLLY lacking sleep.
but, I don't seem to be very tired now.
I think there might be a problem with my sleeping habits.
or whatever is wrong inside of me that enables me to just stay up all the time!
I might die a little early, though. lol.

eeep! I'll watching episode 14 tomorrow, then (:

Friday, May 21, 2010

It's Been Awhile

hello blog! I haven't updated in a LONG time.
having Mid-year Exams now.
but I've seriously been slacking.
just spending my time online with youtube and whatnot.
but I am DYINGGG to watch Nowhere Boy. EEEEP. (:

I've already done Sejarah paper 1 and the 2 BM papers.
looong way to go.
difference now is,
I'm trying out art.
which is a pretty risky thing to do.
since, my art skills aren't so good :/

Friday, April 30, 2010

The Pressure

no, not pressure like, external pressure.
feels more like internal pressure.
I feel like my whole head. from brain to skull to eyes to ears.
they feel like they're being pressed so tightly!
literally. and I can't seem to relax my mind!

sigh, I'll be stuck at the culinary competition tomorrow
since Eening's going to Bukit Tinggi, Elyas is replacing.
and I feel like there're so many things on my mind. I just feel like screaming and throwing things!
gosh, I need an anger release-ment helper.


Sunday, April 18, 2010


aghh, no school for a week.
but loads of homework!
ishh, now I feel like watching all the movies and shows in the world!
literally, like, owning every single one of them so I can watch ALL of them! :D :D

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Oof, Crisis

aghh, I've got soo much to get off my mind.
I came home REALLY happy.
I'd gotten 100 for Math and the collage looks good!
on the way home, just let my mind wander.
thought about how glad the collage is finished!
and the Al Gore board is almost complete!
just a little time tomorrow, it'll be done.
and then there're the class boards I have to fill in.
and then MYE's coming up in about 6 weeks.

reached home, planning what's left to do with the rest of the day, I see my mom by the table.
she's good.
all is(was) good.
I went to her room to clean up and to take out my contact lenses.
and she says "I hope you don't break anymore of your contact lenses"
and I told her one side broke yesterday. I was rubbing my eye and it came out, and it broke.
she scolded me.
a lot? saying I don't care how much they spend on contact lenses.
and I just do whatever I like (?)
so, the usual, I keep quiet and keep the argument, in the sense of both time and anger, to a minimal.
she just goes on and on.
and as she asks me why I'm so rough with my contact lenses (obviously a rhetorical question), I BROKE ONE SIDE! my heart stopped. I put them in the casing and I left the room.
I am still pretty scared.
maybe it's best I don't tell her?
but I'm 101% sure it isn't me.
it's definitely the brand of the contact lenses! -.-
or maybe the amount of time I've been keeping them for?

so, obviously, I noticed and so did the rest of the family, she's in a bad mood -.-
and when she's in a bad mood, she has NO idea how ridiculous she gets.
and how self-centered she sounds as if she's the only person in the world to have problems.
but, I guess everyone wants a little self pity.
leave it be, I went to SS2.

came back, Niahn decided to hide in her room.
mom heard the creaking of the door and asks who it is.
Niahn decides not to respond.
even after being asked multiple times. no response.
she gets so pissed, she starts shouting at her,
telling her that she asked so many times and why she didn't respond -.-

so, I think it's obviously she's not so happy. spending the whole evening trying to pick fights with everyone, and then telling everyone she's going through a lot.
my guess, she's either quarrelling with my dad
or, she's upset my dad couldn't come back from Seremban last night.

but here's the thing she's not seeing, making everyone else miserable just because she feels like picking on something, isn't solving anything!
2ndly, and this is most important, I have no idea why the hell she doesn't think about it, but, if she's lonely, or whatever the adjective is, she shouldn't be picking fights with everyone.
but making herself feel warm and cosy with everyone by her side.

she said, and I'd definitely NEVER quote (unless of course, I'm crazy mad), "this family is driving me crazy"

Sunday, April 11, 2010


I am sooo exhausted.
and I have no idea why.
I'm just so sleepy.
last night, I slept at 7:30.
not in the morning, in the EVENING.
which is crazy early.
and then I woke up at 3am and dilly dallied.
and then I went back to sleep and woke up again at 8am to leave to Eening's house.
spent the day with Eening, Kat and Wen Chien.
had loads of fun :D
with Jang Geun Suk as wellll!

after that, we went to Jiann Lee's house warming.
lots of laughter there.
but then I left pretty early.
went to Backyard with the parents.
and was going to fall asleep.
maybe I actually did!

and now, I officially have the Killers Live at the Royal Albert Hall dvd!
GAHHH, thanks, Katttt!

and I'm trying to burn a disc, and it's burning okay.
but then, once it reaches 66%, it gets problematic.
I have wasted about 5 dvds on that dumbass show -.-

sleep I shall.
going to school tomorrow. -.- at 11am! ekkk.

Friday, April 2, 2010


time for change?
sigh :/ in a pretty crappy mood
I'm thinking too much.
I'm always thinking too much.
I need to change that.
but, it's honestly much easier said than done.

anyway, putting all the emoness aside,
we've been working on the collage.
I have no started studying for ANYTHING.
and it's worrying me.
damnit, I feel so annoyed.
I know I only get this one chance to take SPM.
and I should give all I have to do my best.
but, I can't seem to push myself!

I am so pissed off now!
my mood is so badd!
somebody changed the settings on the computer.
and it really bugs me.
why can't people just USE the computer.
without having to click anything unnecessary.

Monday, March 29, 2010


ekk, I've got a mosquito bite on my ankle!
can you believe that? -.-
the lack of satisfaction no matter how hard I scratch it.

anyway, times're going to be pretty hectic.
Kat's coming back!
wooot, we need to spend as much time with her as we can
then class test 2.
and there's the collage.
and we need to fill up the class pin-up boards.
woww, I think I'm going to go crazy.

worst part, the collage is due like, right after class test 2.
which either gives me no time to study. or no time to do the collage.
shiiiit lah! and there's homework.
it's an SPM year for god's sake!

I haven't even done ANYTHING useful.
but, I feel like I already need a break.
just thinking about it makes me feel exhausted -.-

Oosh, That's Bad

oooop, it's been a while since I last blogged?
anyway, Class Test 2 is coming up.
starting on the 5th of April to the 9th.
which REALLY bugs me.
and then they give us a collage project.
that's due on the 9th!
and it's not easy finding nice pictures of the rainforest!

also, Kat's going to be back by the 1st of April! AGHH
so excitedddd :D

also, just finished watching the Liverpool highlights.
they won 3-0 against Sunderland!
Fernando Torres' goal was SUPERB!
as usual, he's my herooo :D

Jang Geun Suk is going to Singapore.
and my GOSH I wanna go so badly!
but I think the prices are like, 250++ Sing Dollars?
which are wayy toooo expensive for me.
but I'm dying to go ):
I guess I'll just have to keep watching from afar.
until I marry him (:

school starts again.
I reeeeally need to start studying.
but then, there's also the collage thing!
sigh, Sejarah and Bio are my weaknesses.
need to really read up on those and slot in some collage time -.-
sigh. I don't knowwwww what to do.
and how to manage everything properly.
not to forget how much the internet is just sucking me in.
google and youtube are my enemies, but I love them ):

Friday, March 19, 2010

Some Settle for Less

here's what I think,
we live life to be happy.
the only purpose of life is happiness.
your OWN happiness.
of course, everyone wants happiness.
and sometimes, you can't be selfish to just think you deserve all the hapiness.
obviously, you've got to consider the happiness of others as well.

so, there's really no point in living life if you're not gonna get the best out of it.
hence, I have decided to change.
if I can, of course.
maybe, I little bit more self esteem? more confidence? more sporting?
a little bit more of everything?

anyway, I've got homework to doo.
ekk, I feel so lazy.
and there's the karangan to complete!
there's everything to do!
Art folio, the collage thing, Moral project.
and I almost forgot, we have the Al Gore project. SHIITT.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

I've Got This Sentimental Heart that Beats

blagghh, it's 2am! and I'm awake.
Jang Geun Suk is SOO adorable.
and I can't seem to find the show Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do.
so, I decided to watch it on youtube, and myyy, he's sooo adorable.

anyway, I downloaded Live from Royal Albert Hall.
the songs. I looove it :D
29 songs. woooot.
BitTorrent is prooo.

I took the entrance exam 'today'
my, it was tough.
the Ellesmere one.
the Plymouth one was quite okay?
I hope. AGHHH.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Or Should I Just Get Along With Myself?

blaghh, I'm crazyy scared.
SPM is this year.
and as they all say, the graphs for math and science subjects tend to be lower.
whereas the graphs for the BM subjects, like Sejarah, are higher.
and I'm crazy WEAK in BM and Sejarah! -.-
and if ANYTHING, I would rather the graphy LOOOOWERR for Sejarah.
if the paper gets tough, I'm a goner!
I need to start focusing and studying hard for the weakkk ones!

got the entrance exam on Saturday,
preliminary rounds for singing are tomorrow. or, more like later (:

ahhh! got so much piling up!
and I'm just procrastinating EVERYTHING
being too lazy and such. -.-
can't be good.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The Final (Concert)

completely forgot about the Killers ending their final concert for the meantime in Melbourne, Australia!
mymy, how lucky of them to be able to watch :/
they are it! I haveee to see them live.

anywayy, I feel sooo tired.
and I have SO much to do.
but I'm just sitting here, online -.-
even though I have Math, Add Math, English, that Al Gore project, Physics, BM.
ishhh! and I think I should start trying out the theory questions for art!
sigh, I think I should work harder :/
it feels like I'm not putting in all that much effort.

tesha, dying.

"Melbourne, we did it!" - Brandon Flowers

Stalker? :/

I'm feeling pretty emoooo.
anyway, we've gotten back all of our Class test 1 results.
finally :D I guess I didn't do too badly?

anywayy, Liverpool lost to Wigan 1-0 -.-
sighsighsigh. what more?

I swear, I had like, so many things to say.
and the minute I clicked "New Post" and started typing, everything went blank!

I think I might be going crazy. -.-

Thursday, March 4, 2010

To Live the Dream

I want miracles.
many, many miracles :/

anyway, I haven't been updatingg!
we've been getting Class Test 1 results this week.
I guess it's been going pretty okay?

and I've officially become a fan of Jang Geun Suk!
my, he's soooo adorable. (;

also, I think I've been spending a bit too much money :/
I should slow down.

I thought I had loads to blog about,
but as it turns out, I don't.
I completely don't know what to write anymore.

I need to save money.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Feel My Bones, On Your Bones

I had a 9-day break for CNY.
and school resumes tomorrow. ekk.
not only resumes, but to add-on,
class tests are on Tuesday through Thursday.

anyway, I just got back from Tzer Minn's house.
house is probably an understatement.
it's so huge, it's practically a TOWN.
fireworks, firecrackers, lion dances and everything.
it was SOO cool.
jakuned like CRAZY.
everything was seriously SOOO nice.
the place is HUGE.
I had fun just being amazed by everything.
came home and couldn't stop talking about it to the parents.
about the bikes he has, the cars. wooooow.

also, I've been getting pretty worked-up over this.
I'm extremely convinced that Brandon Flowers does NOT use auto-tune mics.
I mean, for album work, I heard they did for Hot Fuss.
but, I mean for live concerts.
I really think he doesn't use auto-tune during live concerts.
but, it sounds so unreal, I really can't be sure.
ishhh! it's making me annoyed.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

You Bleed Just to Know You're Alive

it's been a whileee!
I think quite a few people will be coming tomorrow (:
and Class Test 1 is RIGHT after holidays.
gosh, I'm crazy scared.
nothing really on my mind noww.


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Being Left Far Behind

gosh, I've been SO exhausted.
came home from school some time ago.
had cheer practice from 8am to 3:40pm!
I feel SOOO tired and I can't feel my feet anymore.
of course, then the same thing happens again tomorrow.

I wanna catch some sleep before tution -.-
I'm overly exhausted. I'm not kidding!
I've also been watching Glee! pretty nice.
the voices sound kinda edited, but, it's a good show (:

I feel like renting some Korean shows and buying some movies/shows to watch.
but, my mom's all "why aren't you studying harder!" yada yadaaa
so, more effort I will put in!
I'll try.

I opened a new pack of 2-week contact lenses that day.
wore them once, moved house.
and they're gone.
jeez, what a waste -.-

every time I blog, I totally forget what to blog about!
ishhhh. I'm too tired!
nap I shall (:

Saturday, January 30, 2010


I had soooo much to blog about yesterday.
so much to say,
so much to rant about.
but my internet was soooooo retarded.
and now, it's FINALLY okay.
and I don't really have much to say. lol

I've moved, and it's a real cosy place,
but, when I start to think about it,
doesn't feel very happy :/

scares the bejeeeeepers outta meee.

sighhhhhhh, my mind feels like I've got loads to worry about.
and I feel so anxious all the time.
but I have no idea what about!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

A Lot You Don't Know

well, I guess, party went smoothly :D
and I had school, wasn't feeling very well, though.
but, I came back and got some rest, so, I guess I feel pretty okay.

been pretty emo. -.-
time of the month I guess?
ish, it's already 1:40am?
and there's school tomorrow, and extra class for Sejarah.
oh, how I HATE Sejarah!

I think I've got a lot to blog about, I just don't know.

anyway, I'm moving, REAL soon. lol
like, on Wednesday.
ish. not so keen.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Oh My, Insecurities

like, sometimes, left out?
well, I've always had that feeling
since I was like, 5?
I hate myself.
for being suspicious, obsessive and everything else.
you don't know, more than you think.

I haven't been blogging,
it's been a tiring past couple of days,
and the weekends just past by like, swooosh!
sighhh. I'm in a sad mood.

house cooling tomorrow.
fingers crossed, nothing happens.
I need to change.

okay, never mind that.
there're a few things I wanna do in life,
might be a little late for it now, but, maybe some time.

I wanna..

do something musical
be able to cook and bake
be artistic
change (the world, and everything else. including myself)

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Mrs. Brightside

helloo, I just got back from cheer
and had dinner.
yada yada,
I have tuition in about, less than an hour?

I'm extremely exhausted,
there's a karangan due tomorrow,
and A LOT due tomorrow.
I need a breeeeak.

I haven't been doing much when I'm home.
I just laze around.
and my mom's getting so mad.
saying I'm not putting in any effort.
but, come on, I am soooo exhausted.
from hours in school and hours in cheer!

anywhoo, I think, I've finalised that I'm going to take art.
first, I was sure, went to ask the teacher, and I was very sure.
then people started throwing opinions at me,
and I had 2nd thoughts.
but now, I think, I'm pretty sure.
though, my art pretty much sucks,
but I would like to learn,
fingers crossed,
hopefully I can do ittt!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Hello Goodbye

ishh, it felt like the weekend had just begun,
before I know it, it's Monday tomorrow.
I wanna watch tv, but I think I should sleep.
and, I think it's best that I sleep,
and I should probably discipline myself a lot more.

wish there were more time.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Carry Out!

I took the longest nap, AGAIN.
and this time, longer than yesterday! lol.

I don't think I've got a lot of homework this weekend.
although, my tuition teacher gave me some work to do :/
I don't think he likes me so much. loll.

anyway, I'm moving soon. very soon!
noooooo. I'm not very keen on moving,
but the rest of the family are pretty enthusiastic.
and the entrance exams are still worrying mee!
I'm not sure when it is, or what it's going to be aboutt! aghh.

alsoooo, the Killers are gonna be on hiatus after they tour.
I have yet to watch them live ):
gah, I looooove them. (died)

If You Can't Hold On

I had a GREAT nap.
my first of the YEAR
finally, it's Friday today!
technically, yesterday.
it was awesomeee!

I have cheer "later" technically.
from 8 to 12!
I think it's been going well,
but I'm getting more and more tired each day.
but probably not tomorrow! :D

anywhoo! I'm still pretty freaked out over my entrance exams.
I wanna get in, but :s

Friday, January 15, 2010

Wait for Something Better

mygod! I'm TIRED.
was watching American Idol,
nothing special.
at all!
it's like, 12:30am now and I'm already DYING on my end.

anyway, I need to do some class deco stuff, so I'll be up for a few more hours.
but my eyes are like, practically shutting my itself.
I am SOO exhausted!
I can't wait to just sleeeeeep tomorrow.
I need to catch up on some homework and revision!

and I forgot to talk about,
between Liverpool and Reading. at HOME?
you IDIOTS! come on! WHYY?
no more FA Cup, noooo.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Your History of Blisters

another tiring day.
tomorrow will be a shorter one,
can't wait :D
staying back until 3:30pm only.

American Idol repeat soon!

apparently, Concord College is full, but Plymouth and Ellesmere are sending in their entrance exams in about 2 to 3 weeks time. :/
gosh, how BADLY I wanna do well!
fingers EXTREMELY crossed.
gahh, worries meee.

also, taking art worries me too :s
gahh, hope it all goes fine.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I See Sam's Town

I've got loadddds to do.
but I'm watching American Idol.
and I have tuition tomorrow.

also, something that's bugging me,
I'm taking art for SPM.
and I'm reeeeallly scaredd
I reeeally, BADLY wanna take it.
but, I just, really suck at art!
ughh, what am I gonna doooo?
ishhh, so unfair to those that were born with at least something -.-

anyway, cheerleading has been pretty fun!
but crazily tiring.
and the hours are nuts.
along with all the homework
and the projects.
I'm soooo exhausted.

help, I'm feeling like crappp.

Still Need Some Company

mygosh, I'm tired!
today was a pretty hectic day.
and so will Thursday be a hectic day.

I stayed back until 6pm,
reached home only at about, 7:15.
had tuition at 8-10pm.
and I had homework.
which, I only did BM.
my Chemistry file isn't even fully together yet.

anyway, Elyas brought his BEAUTIFUL 1oo pound Limited Edition Liverpool, Fernando Torres jersey to school today.
and he let me wear it for cheer :D
and I had to bring the box home.
terribly heavy, but it's such a beautiful box.
that's pretty much the IT of the day. (:

tomorrow, NO SEJARAH!
I know Mr. Sara's classes are a lot of fun
but, I just hate the subject so much,
I can't do itt!
and of course, cheer until 6pm again tomorrow.

I NEED a break.

also, was talking to my mom about the whole future thing this evening.
and, no break for me.
if I'm planning to go to UK, she wants me to take IB
but only IF they have a January intake.
if they don't, she'll want me to take A Levels there.
which, also has to be in January.
if I don't wanna take A Levels,
I'll have to take IB, but ALSO during the January intake -.-
it sorta really bugged me.
I mean, LITERALLY, I just have NO break at ALL.
but then, thinking about it, I guess, it's best?
I mean, I can't wait ALL the way until September.
but it's reeeeally pissing me off.
although, maybe I'm just thinking about it too soon.

alsooooo, Liverpool have an FA Cup match against Reading again.
somewhere this week. fingerscrossed!

Monday, January 11, 2010


gosh, I'm TIRED!
I slept prettty early last night.
but, gone through hours of school, and cheer!
ohmygawdd, sooo tired.
and then there's cheer tomorrow as well.
I looove my Green House! (;

anyway, got some work to catch up on.
and I terribly wanna sleep.
and then, school again tomorrow!
I guess so far, nothing new.
I think?
I think I'll be going out on Friday.
we'll see.
I need some going out time.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I've Been Killing Just for Fun

my internet died for a few days.
'cause I was getting a new one. Wimax
I would assume it'd be damnnn good or something.
but, it's not that great.
just as slow as Streamyx. -.-

anyway, I joined cheer.
gonna have some crazy practices I'd assume.
since Sports Day is in less than a month.
I've got mount load of homework.
I finally got Titanic.
I need to buy books.
things have been a little hectic.
I wanted to blog about something,
but I forgot.
so, never mind (;

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Help Me Get Down

gahhh, back from school.
2nd day.
and there's quite a lot to be done. -.-
and I'm crazy tired.
I was told naps aren't good. so, I'm trying not to fall asleep!
and I have tuition later.
hopefully, I don't fall asleep during!

we had a Green House meeting today.
guess I'll be joining cheer :D
why not?

also, no the Killers in Singapore for me.
neither will there be a Paramore for me.
mom's not allowing concerts outside the country -.-
and I'm reasoning with her.
and I guess I'm fine with it. :/
can't have it all, I guess?

anyway, highlight of today in school?
the fact that my CLASS PAGE IS MISSING?
ohmygod. I'm so pissed off!
I put in so much time, money and effort into the friggin' class page.
all the ink, the photo paper, the late nights.
and what do I get?
nobody even informed me that they were going to change it.
srsly, does Mr.Zac not understand how heart-broken I feel?
now it's just a plain humongous picture with an orange background -.-
if they wanted a soft copy, they could've just said so.
or they could've TOLD me before they made me work so hard to make it right.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Tell No One

weird! I just noticed that my New Year's post was exactly the 300th post.
anyway, today was the first day of school.
and it already feels like SPM is JUST around the corner.
there's been so much on my mind!
I'm moving this month. and I don't know which books to pack or not to pack.
and there's SPM.
and I wanna work hard.
but yet I feel so ekkkkk.

okay, first things first,
The Killers.
I wanna go.
like, EXTREMELY badly.
it's on a Sunday.
24th of January.
problem is, that it's on a Sunday.
I have school the next day.
and there's transportation issues.
money issues
sigh. I'm sad. srsly.
ohgosh, what'm I gonna do.
I get the feeling this'll be the usual planning.
but, it'll be a failure. and I'll end up not going.
ohmahgawd, but I rrrrreeeaaaallllyyy wannna gooooo!
but because I stay in Malaysia, It's hard to get the tickets.
and I won't know where I'll be standing if I get the tickets.
'cause I LOOOVE the mosh pit!
but they only give the pricing online and they don't tell me where it is!
and yada yada.
so basically,


also, there's Paramore in March.
I think Iman's going. hopefully I have the money to tag along.
ohgosh, how badly I want this.
but, maybe I'm asking for too much?

maybe I don't necessarily HAVE to go?
gosh, I hate it when I feel like this.
I wanna jab myself.
I need someone to talk to.
someone that can just sit there and listen to me talk crap.
I'll just wait for my mom to get back.

today went well.
nothing much.
but, it was a pretty good first day.
well, for me, mentally, not so much.
but, I probably think too much to begin with.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

All New!

it's a New Yearr!
school's starting soon
as in, VERY soon

I'm watching Coffee Prince.
almost done with it.
my god, it is one CRAZY show.
no kidding.
it's sorta disturbing, but sweet.
but, WTH? ohgosh, freeeak showww.
but I think I like it. but sorta find it a little weird.

never mind that.
I think I need to wrap my books.
I'm not sure if my pencil box is properly filled.
and I'm scaredddddd for school.

anyway, Happy New Yearrr!


AHHH! it really looks like many wanna buy Fernando Torres
he belongs in Liverpoooool! ):
might be the better for him.
but! we neeeeed himm.